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Archive for September, 2007
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Thoughts On Perfectionism
I’ve really been pondering that Flylady email I referenced earlier about sidetracked people being perfectionists. I knew I was a perfectionist (it’s Virgo by nature), but I didn’t realize that one of the reasons I get so sidetracked and off task is because of it.
The point really hit me when I was at work today while cleaning and labeling the DVD cases that store the data backups I do everyday. After I spent five minutes trying to get hard tape residue off of a DVD case when there were piles of stuff everywhere that I needed to file, the point of it hit me. I looked at the stack of DVD cases I had in front of me and realized about 80% of them had this same residue on them. Was I really going to expend that much energy on something like that when the residue had no effect whatsoever on the case’s ability to hold a burned DVD. Really, who cares about a little bit of tape residue on the DVD case? I’m sure I am the only one who even noticed it.
It was hard, but I let it go. I’m sure that every time I see one in the rack, I’m going to be tempted to try to clean it, but I must resist.
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Tasks for 9/18/07
Todays list of three things I WILL accomplish:
- Clean Kitchen counter
Bait wasp traps- List item on eBay
Bonus: Check lottery tickets in wallet.
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Battling Procrastination
Item number 2 of today’s list highlights one of my biggest character flaws — procrastination. Marcus and I have joked about how I’m the Queen of Procrastinaiton®, but honestly, it’s not a laughing matter.
Take this pillow rebate as a prime example. I bought my Mediflow pillow around August 1st, spurred by the $5 rebate I could get. Since then, I have managed to misplace the Penneys receipt. I have to have it postmarked today or I can’t get it. *sigh*
I don’t know why I place such a low priority on things I must do for myself. I don’t do this procrastination stuff at work. I’m given a task and I complete it. I’m sure it has to do partially with the lack of respect I have for myself and a recent insight about my perfectionism. A Flylady email I got the other day mentioned that a lot of perfectionists simply give up when things around them can’t be perfect.
For Sidetracked people like us; we get overwhelmed by it. We want it in order but we don’t think we have enough time to do it right. This is when we do nothing. Getting overwhelmed is caused by our perfectionism.
I’ve put the whole email in its entirety on it’s own page entitled Perfectionism.
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Tasks for 9/15/07
Todays list of three things I WILL accomplish:
- Clean Kitchen counter
- Find receipt and mail pillow rebate form
- Bait wasp traps
EDIT: Geeze, why can’t I get my brain focused to do even one thing on these lists? I did look for the receipt and it has gone permanently missing.
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I’m Fed Up
I do paid blogging on my other blog and I’m sick of it. I think I’m just about ready to quit. I’m tired of forcing myself to write about crap I don’t really care about for a few measly dollars that I still have to pay taxes on. I’m tired of worrying about Alexa ratings and tacks and PR and all that junk that I never used to care about. Maybe it will become enjoyable again. I’m grateful I had it during the unemployment times, but now I’m using it as a crutch in a way. My hourly investment in this could get me a greater yield elsewhere, I think.
I’m also thinking of scrapping my plans to go to Vegas. Honestly, I can’t really afford it and why go to a blogging conference when I can’t stand the thought of blogging (especially for PPP) anymore. This whole dog ordeal combined with a bunch of other stuff is really making me rethink my priorities. True, I haven’t had a vacation in 3 years, but this trip just doesn’t feel right anymore.
I think it’s a good time to move to my new domain and let that blog die. Maybe I’ll let it sit for 6-8 months so that advertisers don’t bitch, but I’ll eventually move the personal posts off of it and delete it.
I’m so ready to move onto something better.
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Finally Maturing?
This past weekend, I was trying to get a new dog. My life has felt empty without a dog in it and it seems that everywhere I go lately, there are reminders that I’m dogless. A friend had emailed me about a friend of hers that was fostering a dog that needed a new home. When I saw the picture, I immediately fell in love and knew I just had to have the animal. I emailed the woman back and forth and was to the point that I was filling out the questionnaire and gathering references when my friend let me know that he was an undisciplined handful.
I was crushed, but knew that no matter how badly I wanted him, having this particular dog was not a good idea. The old me would’ve continued towards the goal of saving the dog and been disappointed when it destroyed my things, but he new me emailed the woman back and let her know that I would have to withdraw my intentions to adopt the animal.
At least the whole ordeal was not in vain. It has strengthened my resolution that I need to get my ducks in order and get out of this mobile home park so that I can have another dog as part of the family.
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Tasks for 9/4/07
This new project is not going as planned. Oddly enough, though, I’m actually getting stuff done that is not on the list. Oh, well…as long as I’m getting stuff done. Here’s the list I’m shooting for today:
- Clean kitchen counter
Make car payment- Fill out and mail pillow rebate
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Quiz: Life Path Number
You are very compassionate, and you offer comfort to those around you.
It pains you to see other people hurting, and you do all in your power to help them.
You take on responsibility, and don’t mind personal sacrifice. You are the ultimate giver.
In love, you offer warmth and protection to your partner.
You often give too much of yourself, and you rarely put your own needs first.
Emotions tend to rule your decisions too much, especially when it comes to love.
And while taking care of people is great, make sure to give them room to grow on their own.