I’m going to turn this space into something more than a weight loss journal. I’m going to chronicle the steps I’m taking to become the woman I’ve always wanted to be. Part of that will be becoming a more healthy person with a normal weight, but it’s going to be so much more. At least, that’s the intent.

My weight has been sitting at 291.5 lbs. for weeks. After seeing a picture of myself at Laura’s party last Saturday and now that my jaw is no longer in throbbing pain from the oral surgery, it’s time to get this health plan going again. It’s time to stop with the excuses and really commit to becoming the person I was to be.

I am appalled every time I see a picture of myself. When did I develop a third chin? In my mind, I’m still the same girl I was in college. I was never thin, mind you, but I was thinner, I was healthier and I was pretty. I’ve put on over a hundred pounds since I was that young woman. I’ve finally hit the point where it is not comfortable to lie on my back as the weight of myself makes it hard to breathe. I have so much I want to accomplish with my life and my unwillingness to become healthy is really standing in the way.